It's finally HERE!

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , , ,
SUNSWEPT is finally available through www.PHAZE.com! This is what the full cover flat looks like (pre-bar code) and I'm just so stoked about it! As I've mentioned before, I really enjoy these stories because they are fun contemporaries. The heroines are smart and a sassy, and the heroes are just plain sexy...

This is the very last CASSIDY KENT print book being published. So in purchasing the book, you're also helping eBook/Small Press. We don't get as much coverage like NY does so the power of word of mouth and supporting me will go a long way. This book is in available in Trade Paperback and goes for $12.95. I suppose they might have eVersions of SUNSWEPT in the near future and will most likely be available on Fictionwise for you hand-held eBook lovers.

Thanks so much to all my friends and readers for traveling that road with me!

Here's the book details below for those who want to do some much needed book Pimpage...

SUNSWEPT by Cassidy Kent
a 3 novella anthology
Publisher: Phaze Publishing
Purchase Link: http://www.king-cart.com/Phaze/product=Sunswept/exact_match=exact
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release: May 31, 2009


SUNSET KEY…
Freesia Daniels, personnel specialist and consummate planner, wasn't prepared to get the boot from her company for possessing a heart. When she decides to return home from Boston to the sunny beaches of Key West to lick her wounds, she discovers her heartbroken past has finally caught up with her in the form of Zachary Gray, her childhood sweetheart. He lures her to his island getaway and lands them smack in the middle of a raging hurricane. Lightning doesn't often strike twice, but this storm might give them both a second chance at love.

RALEIGH IN RIO…
Raleigh Campbell just learned that her five year marriage was a sham. To cheer her up, her friends take her to Rio during Carnivale to celebrate her 30th birthday and pending divorce. Little does she know, she’s not the only one her soon-to-be ex has cheated on.

Private investigator Cristo Santiago has been assigned to watch Raleigh's every move, in search of twelve million dollars of embezzled corporate money, and that's landed him in the hot waters of obsession. His love for Raleigh is sealed under the starry Rio sky, but can he find the missing money without losing her trust?

DOLCE & DIANA…
Diana Radford’s divorce settlement includes three million dollars and an island resort off the coast of Grenada. Although not classically educated in the culinary arts, she possesses a rare natural ability to create brilliant Italian/Caribbean fusion dishes. When she is selected by the reality cooking show, Fighting Chance, she can’t turn away the opportunity. Win or lose, this is much needed press for her restaurant, “Dolce”.

Culinary celebrity and reality show host, Chance Kohler possesses arrogance to rival his talent. After helming several 5-star restaurants in the States, he is disappointed to discover his opponent is an ex-waitress with no formal culinary training. From the moment they meet, this fashionista whets his appetite and leaves him craving for second helpings. If he loses, his career is on the line and he must survive the fierce but tasty competition…while the whole world watches.

The Light Shines On

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
We're reviewing final plans on our move next month. We haven't narrowed down the exact date yet but I know I'm going to hate it either way. Moving is such a pain in the backside and because I've done this so darn much, I'm only wishing that the next big move, after this temporary one, will be into my dream home. Always being in transition is only exciting when you're traveling through Europe or some exotic country but not like this. When the big move happens, I'll be out-of-pocket until all the necessities are installed but I hope to be back up and running quickly. Without my T1 line I'll be screwed and going through serious withdrawal.

On the bright side, my new project is coming along better than I thought. It's such a different voice and it's my first attempt at a single title first person piece. It's going to be TOUGH, but I like the fact that I'm going out of my comfort zone. Maybe it's about time I go a little darker, and I'm loving it. My snarky persona really shines through in this project which I kinda dig. Usually I go over details with close friends but this time I've decided not to tell anyone about it. Maybe I'm getting superstitious but I figured if you're going to be in that cave, you might as well get used to the dark alone. So you see folks, I do see the slivers of sunlight peeking through the dreary clouds. I'm still keeping the faith that everything will turn out the way I hope it would.

Until next week, happy weekend and I hope you get a lot of YOU time. It's nice to take time out for yourself even if it's a few hours. Life's short...take advantage of every second!

Hey, I'm guest blogging at HoR today!

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That's right folks, I'm guest blogging at HOOKED ON ROMANCE and I'm getting personal!

Here's your chance to be the first one to win the eBook ARC of SUNSWEPT before it's out! This is the only time I'll do this giveaway. Also, I've got a first ever excerpt of Dolce & Diana, one of my favorite stories in the anthology. Well, I loved them all but this one is about haute cuisine and reality tv. :)

Come by and say HI if nothing else!

Write Something!

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
Published or not, it's easy to let paranoia get the best of you. I've been feeling like I'm so very close but each time I'm optimistic, something happens that makes me frown. So, I've been working on novellas, edits, proposals and so on...as much as I write, you would think I actually have another deadline but right now I won't have anything out next year. That could change in a heartbeat so I need to produce more projects. Here I am, freaking out that I won't have a book release and halfway into my YA project I am hit with a lightning bolt for a new 'Secret' project.

I can't begin to tell you how much fun it is to write this Urban Fantasy. It's dark, snarky, and gritty. I'm enjoying it more than I thought I would and it's first person! Which I totally don't write. It's also a lot different than I usually write, less lyrical and more mainstream. Sometimes it's good to change things up a bit. Now, if I can get this proposal done by the weekend, I'll be so happy. I'm already excited about wanting to send it to my agent...I think she'd be proud of me taking on a new challenge. It's also very liberating because sometimes you got to tackle something you aren't necessarily comfortable with. Now, I hope I can keep the momentum. I'm being a bit superstitious so I'm not going to tell anyone about it. No one knows except me and Mr. Right. In the past I've told my dearest friends but this time, I'm going to practice restraint.

Okay, back to working on the masterpiece. Now, you should read the rules on the picture. It's so true!

Dreams take hold

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I have had serious insomnia ever since I can remember and over the years I've taken sleep aids to help me sleep through most of the night. Since I finished my lighthearted Irish tale I decided to pick up where I left off on my YA manuscript. Unfortunately, paranormals weren't in my immediate future. You see, I opted to not take the Tylenol PM that I've been popping since January and I had a terrible time going to sleep. When I finally dozed off at 4:00 AM my dreams were calling to me. It was the most bizarre thing, as if I'm watching a movie about my characters. They even told me what the title of the book was going to be, no matter how ridiculous it was. Maybe buried deep in my subconscious is the teenager waiting to tell her own story through me. I usually have a hard time remembering my dreams but when I woke up this morning, the story was so fresh I had to start on it. How do you explain these things? It kind of freaked me out and when I told Mr. Right about it, he thought it was a great concept. Hummmm, so I loaded up on caffeine and now starting the new YA project.

Sigh.

Why me, and why now? If I don't write it, I know I may regret it later so I guess I'm going to have to buckle down and start the proposal process.

It's been a while since I featured artists I like. Katie Melua is an awesome Irish singer and this particular song is my all time FAVE. Coincidentally, it is the song my heroine chose for to write to....Enjoy!

Artist: KATIE MELUA
Song: JUST LIKE HEAVEN

What's your Kryptonite?

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This isn't about Superman or his weaknesses...this is about authors and what seems to be their biggest kryptonite...

For me, I've observed and seen most frequently three main obstacles for writers. I'm sure we'll all have our fair share of these moments but it's not necessarily a bad thing. Now, when it rules our ability to move beyond...that's when it becomes problematic.


1. Self-doubt ... you go through days when you think that your writing has never smelled sweeter. Then, you start re-reading and over edit and discover that you're frustrated because it doesn't seem to read as as well as you previously believed.

Or, when you're on a break between writing, you pick up another author's book. After reading it, you think you'll never be in their league. Never produce anything as tight and engaging. You sulk and this causes more self-doubt and you lose your enthusiasm for writing.

2. Fear ... you're terrified that your writing voice is dull, a turn off, not mass market enough. You scramble to meet the demands of the market, the trends, and you realize you've just sabotaged yourself.

However, best case scenario...You've signed a multi-book deal and the fear of not meeting deadlines triggers more insecurity. You aren't sure if you're ready to make the next leap and it creates unnecessary paranoia. Even destroys the writing career you've always dreamed of having in your grasp. You get dropped by your agent and you're back at square one but now your publishers have put you on the 'do not buy anything from this author again because she can't handle a real writing career' list.

Or, you're a successful ePubbed author. You are content, comfortable. Secretly you never want to move beyond ePublishing because you fear success. You feel inadequate and don't think you can obtain something more than what you currently have. You limit yourself by never taking risks and submitting to NY. You're terrified of going outside the writing box and when you're at the end of your ePub career, you regret not trying because you think rejection would destroy you.

3. Envy ... everyone around you is selling multi-book deals and you're the only one who hasn't yet. Not that you'd begrudge your friends of their wonderful news, but you feel like you're never going to be the one to share a bit of good news in the near future. So you slide down that slippery slope of anger and the envy builds up until you can't see past the green. You can't see through the truth. You become disgruntled and bitter and soon no one wants to be around you anymore. You find yourself alone and wallowing in self-pity when all of it could be avoidable.

Okay, so I've gotten a bit melodramatic near the end but those points I've highlighted aren't necessarily bad--to an extent. I won't lie, I've been there on occasion, but never to extent that it would affect my vision. Vision meaning that I am a writer and I know someday everything will fall into place. I'll get the publishing career, I'll get the following, and I will get to a level where I'm satisfied with my voice. The power of the mind can repel any kryptonite. When you allow yourself to wallow, continue to wallow, your production goes down, your self confidence goes down, and your fear comes out the winner. Look, if you have the drive and desire to succeed, you'll do it. It's like turning down the lights around you so you can focus. Lights in this analogy is the loud voices of fear and disappointment, it's the gritty reality around you, it's the loved ones who think you're wasting your time on a pipe dream. Turn the lights down until you are the sole creator in front of the computer. You are the person in charge of your universe and when you've reached the stopping point for the day...everything doesn't seem so bad after all.

You are your own worst enemy.

Embrace the fear for when you don't, it will consume you.

Tell me, what's your writing kryptonite?

FACT: Scientists discovers there is a real kryptonite, not the kind that's been created by comic books either ... Read HERE!

Looking forward to...

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , , ,
I'm totally excited about the print release of SUNSWEPT, which I'm told will be out around the end of May or somewhere in the first week of June...I can't tell you how much this anthology means to me. This book showcases the very first few eBook stories written for Phaze and the beginning of my writing career. I'm sure by now everyone knows I wrote these stories with a co-writer and although we no longer write together, it was a great experience. It taught me a lot about my writing style and how important it is to believe in yourself.

SUNSWEPT contains 3 stories set in tropical locales and the characters all tie in together. It's always a pleasure to write characters that are fun, sassy, and intelligent. When I re-read the stories I'm amazed at what I've accomplished and delighted to re-visit these characters I loved so much. It's so difficult to say goodbye to them because in my head, they're dear friends and one I don't want to let go...

Here's the blurb for the book...

SUNSET KEY…
Freesia Daniels, personnel specialist and consummate planner, wasn't prepared to get the boot from her company for possessing a heart. When she decides to return home from Boston to the sunny beaches of Key West to lick her wounds, she discovers her heartbroken past has finally caught up with her in the form of Zachary Gray, her childhood sweetheart. He lures her to his island getaway and lands them smack in the middle of a raging hurricane. Lightning doesn't often strike twice, but this storm might give them both a second chance at love.

RALEIGH IN RIO…
Raleigh Campbell just learned that her five year marriage was a sham. To cheer her up, her friends take her to Rio during Carnivale to celebrate her 30th birthday and pending divorce. Little does she know, she’s not the only one her soon-to-be ex has cheated on.

Private investigator Cristo Santiago has been assigned to watch Raleigh's every move, in search of twelve million dollars of embezzled corporate money, and that's landed him in the hot waters of obsession. His love for Raleigh is sealed under the starry Rio sky, but can he find the missing money without losing her trust?


DOLCE & DIANA…
Diana Radford’s divorce settlement includes three million dollars and an island resort off the coast of Grenada. Although not classically educated in the culinary arts, she possesses a rare natural ability to create brilliant Italian/Caribbean fusion dishes. When she is selected by the reality cooking show, Fighting Chance, she can’t turn away the opportunity. Win or lose, this is much needed press for her restaurant, “Dolce”.

Culinary celebrity and reality show host, Chance Kohler possesses arrogance to rival his talent. After helming several 5-star restaurants in the States, he is disappointed to discover his opponent is an ex-waitress with no formal culinary training. From the moment they meet, this fashionista whets his appetite and leaves him craving for second helpings. If he loses, his career is on the line and he must survive the fierce but tasty competition…while the whole world watches.


I had a choice to re-edit the stories but opted not to. For one, I want to remember where I came from and where I am now. I think that if I had edited the content, it would certainly detract from the voice and since it was a different identity than my current writing persona, I still adore the innocence and charm of the stories.

Wow, during the last four years I've written 3 books, 2 anthologies, and 1 poem that are now available to the world. It's been an amazing journey and I predict many more books to come. Now it's all about momentum, focus and determination to get a more widespread distribution. Like many other authors I know, we keep hoping for our next book sale and we keep striving for greatness...or at least some much needed good reviews!

Coincidentally, Phaze recently decided to give the SURGE covers a new look. My very first ever novella SUNSET KEY, which is featured in the SUNSWEPT anthology, now has a sexier feel. No more CGI imaging and hopefully a better appeal. In the next few weeks they'll change out the look but I thought I'd give my readers a first peek. If nothing else, buy the eBook and if you love it, you can always pick up the print book with the other two stories! Still not convinced, read the EXCERPT of SUNSET KEY....

Eire...sweet Eire

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , , ,
Visualization is always a plus when you're envisioning a location. My story is set in Ireland, in a region called County Down, home of the Bronte family...so it's certain to be filled with mystery and romance...well, at least a great setting and plenty of hot passion. C'mon, use your imagination--sexy Irishman with a killer smile and sexy tattoos...in this case, you know I'd be imagining Gerry Butler. Who hasn't used the Scotsman to model their hero after, but at least he makes a darn great Irishman! Think PS I Love You with the 300 workout regimen that gave him the yummy physique...oh, sorry. You talking to me? I was drooling.

Okay, see that picture up above, this is what I imagined the cottage my hero owns. Cozy and quaint. I can almost feel the heat coming from the fireplace, a warm cup of tea, and plenty of place to really feel at home where the picture perfect home makes you enjoy snuggling under the covers. There's plenty of cold, drizzly weather in Ireland and mostly year round. I kind of like it. I think that's the difference between Europe and the States, it's known to be atmospheric with the moodiness, perhaps an air of magic. I swear, the more research I do, the more I'm ready to pack up and catch a flight out.


Storytelling is it's own form of magic. The ability to wrap your readers in and keep them there until the very end..that's what writing is all about. That's the reason authors weave stories. I think I can say for most authors, when we tell a story, we feel it, we see it, we hear it, we believe in the characters and root for them. We're like fairy godmothers and we control the outcome of their story. I know that no matter how stuck I get, no matter how frustrated I feel when I can't get in that right frame of mind--I'm always proud of what I've written.

Today I feel especially elated because I totally OWN writing again! It brings everything back into perspective and gives me the added boost I needed after a long, agonizing dry spell...

Road Trip

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I took a day trip...that lasted, well, all day. Mr. Right and I hopped in the car and took off for Shreveport. My sister owns a 5-acre property on the outskirts in a slowly developing area. Of course, we made a few stops along the way to get my lattes and junk food but once we arrived, it was total hicksville! It immediately brought me back to my youth and growing up in a little town called Van Buren. The last time I've seen my hometown was a few years ago on my move from LA to Orlando and, boy, has it grown! Hard to believe the once city with population 25,000 has now tripled in size...

So we got to my sister's house that was tucked away in a very old neighborhood where horses roamed freely and neighbors residing in one place for probably forever...maybe the properties were passed on from generation to generation, but it was not what we had expected. The funny thing was that new development was being built around the old one so it was kind of an odd mix of really nice homes and really old, somewhat dilapidated homes. I can't tell you how peaceful it was out there since the property is at the very end of a dead end strip. I could envision doing a total remodeling of the house and making it Eco-friendly with a tranquil garden and all--but my imagination soon ran away with me...There was so much land that I painted a future in my mind of cottages leading to a walkway that would lead to a Japanese Garden. Okay, I was getting a little ahead of myself, but it's fun to dream. Perhaps more in the fact that it would be a great writing retreat! Anyways, we did a full walk-through of the house--let me tell you, it's a total fixer-upper. The house had been vacant for about eight years so it was mostly age, and wouldn't take much to make it sparkle again. The bad news was that we needed to get an estimator in to take a look at the structure so that if we decide to take on the renovation project, we wouldn't have to worry about having to fix the problems later. Cosmetically it would be a two-week to one month project, but we won't know what really needs to be done until we get the estimates back.

While I stood outside looking at the house, I SO wanted to crack my knuckles and get started. I wanted to start the demolition process and get my hands dirty inside and outside in the yard. I so wanted to create a nice garden...but we opted to take pictures instead. Patience. I need to wait for the estimate on what it will potentially cost if there is structural damage and then decide whether we want to take on this remodeling project. Truthfully, I hate the prospect of moving but a part of me welcomed serenity and change. To hide away and just refocus on me and my future. A part of me wanted to tear down stuff and just start over from scratch. Okay, I'm not entirely delusional....the community is a bit old and some parts of it is depressed from neglect, natural disasters, changing of the times...but you could really see a change was coming. You could see developers making their way slowly and if we decide to make this place our temporary residence, it's going to test me in so many ways. It may even slow down my writing progress to do the manual work...but if we're waiting for some good news anyway, what harm would it be to disappear for a few months just to clear my head?

Back at home and wrapping up my WIP to send out to my agent. There's so much to think about and so much more I need to do...either way, there's a possibility I'll kiss the city life goodbye and head into seclusion for a little while. I'll keep you all posted! :P

Darn you Mercury in Retrograde!

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
No more pity parties going on here so suck it up ... in fact, today I'm going to list things that I've accomplished and have kept me sane during this recession, writing funk, life's idea of a joke, Mercury in Retrograde...








1. My friend KWANA inspired me to knit. So I went out of my comfort zone and made a decision that I will learn and do it this year...I went out and bought almost $100 worth of knitting equipment, yarns, and books to get me started. Sometimes the things you think you can't achieve, you find yourself doing....

<---- That's my handiwork over there. It will someday be a scarf. This picture is not the current progress, it's coming along nicely, thankyouverramuch. :)



2. I learned how to bake and I've pretty much perfected the rum cake. Next, I'm going to try my hand at scones and move onto something really complicated...Madeleine!


3. My first book signing in Texas was at Barnes & Noble in Hurst, TX. It was a success and I got to reconnect with many of my friends. I've always loved doing these because I get to meet the people who read my books or will be reading my book for the first time. It gives you a nice warm feeling because for one day you feel special.




4. A few months ago I started a secret project. It's a romance about a half Vietnamese, half English woman who works for a non-profit organization and is sent to an impoverished rural part of Vietnam. There, she helps the villagers and learns more about herself in the process...including her heritage.

A few days ago, I was researching Asian charities that I wanted to volunteer for. My heart stopped when I came across one particular website--I've just stumbled across a charity that was almost exactly what I was writing about. This was an organization I can see myself being passionate about. It encompasses the same ideas that I hoped to develop for a non-profit I will someday create. I can imagine that in the coming years I'll be focusing all my energies into working with them once my life is back on track. Everything I do, all my successes comes down to one thing--helping others. This organization, Love Across the Ocean focuses on helping the impoverished people in my country. I'm Vietnamese and my desires have always been to help the orphans, the schools, the people who need the help but can't get it. If I can better their lives, help educate them in some way, by providing knowledge and the essential tools to be self-sufficient, there lives would be impacted for the better. You know the old saying, 'knowledge is power'...it's so true on so many levels. This project would also help reduce the human trafficking numbers and allow children to be children without fear. If the impoverished were educated, their decisions would be based on knowledge and not fear. My dream has always been to build great things and I know it's a long-term goal, but it's something I'm going to accomplish in my lifetime. Philanthropist? I hope so. I'm going to try to start with this organization and hopefully someday I'll see what I can truly accomplish...

5. Last, but most importantly, I took a big chance after several broken hearts. But not like this time around. This time, I fell in love with the most incredible man in the world! I'm not just saying it ... Mr. Right supports everything I do. He loves me unconditionally--knowing all my flaws--and we actually communicate and we laugh. Even in the face of so much adversity, he is my cloud that carries me. He is my hero...every hero I've ever written about...even before we ever met. Sometimes when I look at him, I almost believe he's jumped right out of the pages of one of my romance novels! At times it's a little scary :) -- but in a good way. He gives me a reason to get up every morning and do the best that I can. He makes me feel alive and he's made me less selfish because now I understand everything I do is for the both of us...not just me. Yes, I'm crazy for him and I don't think I'll ever find this kind of connection with anyone ever again ... Love is really what makes the world go around.

On that note. What have you accomplished? What do you want to accomplish? What can you do to pass the torch of positivity to someone else? Each person does make a difference and I've always said that random acts of kindness makes a huge impact. Try it.

Dying to know about Mercury in Retrograde? Go HERE to learn about it.

Here are the dates of upcoming Mercury in retrograde events....

- 2009 -
12 Jan Mercury turns retrograde 8 Aquarius
1 Feb Mercury turns direct 22 Capricorn
8 May Mercury turns retrograde 2 Gemini
30 May Mercury turns direct 23 Taurus
8 Sep Mercury turns retrograde 6 Libra
29 Sep Mercury turns direct 22 Virgo
27 Dec Mercury turns retrograde 22 Capricorn

- 2010 -
15 Jan Mercury turns direct 6 Capricorn
19 Apr Mercury turns retrograde 13 Taurus
11 May Mercury turns direct 3 Taurus
21 Aug Mercury turns retrograde 19 Virgo
12 Sep Mercury turns direct 5 Virgo
11 Dec Mercury turns retrograde 6 Capricorn
30 Dec Mercury turns direct 20 Sagittarius

Excerpt Mondays

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
I'm participating in Excerpt Mondays along with other authors ... Go visit the the main site HERE! This idea was created by two members of Romance Divas, Bria Quinlan and Mel Berthier. "Excerpt Mondays" is the chance to showcase an author's work by making it available for readers. There are authors of all different genres and heat level ratings from G to NC-17. Be sure to check out the guidelines and calendar for future dates!

This is my first month of being involved so I am providing the excerpt of my current release to get new readers a chance to sample my first chapter. The months to come I will showcase other print projects as well as some juicy excerpts of my current progress...Thanks for visiting!

ART OF SENSUALITY
ISBN: 9781-6004-3044-2
PARKER PUBLISHING, LLC
Amazon :: Barnes & Noble :: Parker Publishing

BLURB:

Art was not only a passion of Machiko Barrett, but also a destiny…a way of life she has known since her talent was discovered at three years old. Caught in a turbulent storm of celebrity, scandal and corruption, she disappeared from the art world only to re-emerge fifteen years later as an au pair to the two young children of renowned Parisian gallery owners. Her sheltered existence is disrupted when she is lured back to her one true passion: painting.

While Machiko struggles to find her own identity through her art, she encounters Caleb Holden, a sexy, unpredictable and irresistible neighbor with a penchant for collecting art, and women. As he discovers the girl within the woman, the secrets of Machiko's past return to haunt her, revealing scars she never knew existed. She must learn to conquer her fears and allow him into her heart or risk slipping back into a cold, lonely world that once held her spirit captive. Through Caleb's determination to educate Machiko about trusting herself and her abilities, he opens her eyes to the art of sensuality, and awakens the woman buried deep inside the broken girl.


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Rating: R

**This EXCERPT contains explicit and erotic storytelling intended for the enjoyment of adult readers. Not for anyone under 18 years of age.**

CHAPTER ONE

Ocean waves flowed inland like silken sheets, rolling across the soft stretch of sand. The water spread upwards, spraying specks of liquid on Caleb Holden’s tennis shoes and jogging pants. The chilly morning air caressed his face and bare arms as he continued his steady morning run across the beach.

Caleb slowed his pace as he neared the routine end point, two houses from his own. He stopped at the edge of the familiar glass house to catch his breath, his heart pumping hard against his chest as he bent forward, hands on hips, to inhale a lungful of air.

This morning he had run harder than he had in quite a while and it felt good to push his body beyond the limit. He experienced a sense of accomplishment every time his calf muscles throbbed in pain. No pain, no gain. The clichéd motto was a theme that often ran through his mind in regards to everything in his life. He believed pain was just a reminder of his mortality and the necessary force to reach his goals. Success was all the sweeter when he tasted the sweat of his labors.

Caleb took a few deep breaths. Leveling out, he straightened up to go. Out of the corner of his eye he caught a glimpse of dim lights flickering from inside his neighbor’s home. Who could be up at 3:45 AM?

“Strange. They must be back early this year,” he whispered under his breath. Curiosity got the best of him and Caleb looked through the oversized window of the massive modern construction composed of glass, concrete and steel. The Delacroix’s home was a breathtakingly elegant and slick design worthy of any magazine feature. A graceful masterpiece he had wanted to purchase but accepted the offer a few days short.

Caleb had fallen in love immediately with the architecture for its clean, yet tranquil, Zen appeal. “Sustainable design” was what Luc Delacroix had proudly emphasized years ago when he had asked about the unique appearance. From what he understood, this was a response to the global environmental crisis and would contribute to the environment by reducing use of non-renewable resources. He thought it would bring people back to their natural environment by being “green”.

Of course, Caleb had a newfound respect for his neighbor after that education. He was quick to install solar panels in his home and did some eco-friendly landscaping on his modest yard. One thing was certain; Luc was a man ahead of his time. Since then, the neighbors who had once ridiculed Luc for being a “tree hugger” were now following suite in droves. All in the name of tax breaks, not for the environmental cause.

Caleb made a mental note to stop in later to greet his seasonal neighbors. He always enjoyed Luc’s lively conversations and open-mindedness towards diverse topics from art to the stock market. They had shared many dinner parties and drunken dialogues in which their bond only grew stronger with time. This was a huge change from his introverted, unfriendly neighbors and if not for Luc, living in Manhattan Beach wouldn’t be nearly as bearable, or as entertaining.

He smiled to himself in remembrance of their last get together. His breath caught in his throat when he took a quick glance inside. Alarm bells went off in his head and he stepped in closer for another look. He had known the Delacroix to have houseguests every so often, so he didn’t believe she was any kind of burglar. She certainly didn’t look like one either.

Who was she?

He would have remembered meeting her if they had been introduced. Caleb decided it would be best to call Luc when he got back to his home. He didn’t want to jump to any conclusions without sorting it out with them first. He had intended to leave, yet being a hot-blooded male; he opted for a closer look at the Delacroix’s houseguest.

How was she connected to the Delacroix?

He looked around, hoping the neighbors wouldn’t catch him and get the wrong idea. Maybe he was acting a little paranoid, but he felt like a voyeur viewing the most intimate and private moments of a stranger. Her profile revealed a striking beauty, an exotic goddess bathed in candlelight.

Everything about her appearance seemed delicate and innocent, yet strong at the same time. His eyes skimmed across her face, her slender yet seductive body, to her curved hips that were accentuated in the short cutoffs. Her long midnight-black hair flowed across her back, spilling across her arms, and adding to her sensual allure.

The woman was petite in stature but her toned arms and legs hinted at a quiet strength, perhaps maintained from a rigid exercise routine like yoga or Pilates. Her youthful features and silky skin were enhanced by almond-shaped eyes with thick dark lashes, a button nose and high cheekbones. What drew him most to her exotic Amerasian features were those naturally rosy lips, so plump and perfect. Lush lips that were made to be kissed, worshipped, and devoured with slow subtlety.

Caleb blinked as if she was an illusion caused by his strenuous run. Yet there she was, kneeling on the floor, staring up at an oversized canvas. One moment she appeared to be in control of her emotions and the next she doubled over, her body shaking as she wept. The tears flowed on and her sorrow painted an image he would most likely never forget.

How could a total stranger affect him this way? His stomach tightened with a natural desire to console her, hold her in his arms and discover what caused her such pain. This reaction was so foreign and as bizarre as it seemed, he could almost believe the Universe was pulling him toward her.

Caleb inched in closer. He noticed the splatters of paint across her golden skin and clothes. She gripped a paintbrush in her hand. Fresh paint still glistening on its tip. She appeared as graceful as her own painting and his body tingled with an unfamiliar sensation. The paints called to him and he longed to touch the wet paint, then trail his fingers across her flawless skin. Wanted to spread the colors around as if she was an unfinished masterpiece that only he could complete.

Get a grip, Holden. What the hell am I doing?

He blinked, as if that action would break the spell. Somehow his fascination wouldn’t allow him to look away and his eyes kept returning to her. God, she was simply exquisite. A delicate beauty that resembled the woman on the canvas itself, yet the image had a subtle eroticism that surrounded the innocent face. Naked flesh revealed through a sheer flowing crimson gown, posed seductively, almost as if the painting embodied a message he wanted to decipher.

Leave it to him to rationalize everything with a psychological analysis. His eyes caught sight of other canvases from the flicker of candles she used as a light source. Caleb squinted for a better look, his eyes skimming across the room. Several life-sized paintings were propped along the wall and against the various furniture.

He didn’t know what to make of the discovery. All the women had identical faces except for their hairstyles and color, the same sensuality reflecting in their eyes, their lips. If he stared hard enough he would believe they could come to life and weave their magic over him. He swallowed hard. The paintings made him as breathless as the artist who painted them.

As if she sensed him watching, she lifted her head to stare out the window. Straight at him. Caleb reacted without thought, quickly stepping backwards in hopes that he could escape detection. Guilt washed over him for peeping at her grief-filled moment. A right he did not have. Without acting like his usual sensible self, he did the one thing he hadn’t done since a teenager.

Caleb ran like hell back to his home.

***

Machiko wiped her eyes across her forearm. Crying hadn’t helped alleviate the deep sorrow lingering in her soul. She felt the emptiness even after years spent trying to overcome the emotion. Years of psychologists, psychiatrists and treatment to ‘undo’ her withdrawal from the outside world. How could she explain to others what led to her breakdown at thirteen or her estrangement from her parents at sixteen?

After time she learned to accept her idiosyncrasies and ignored the people who had called her a loner. Eccentric. She didn’t care about the labels society placed upon her and focused on ways to heal herself without the team of doctors hovering over her. By sheer luck she had landed a job as an au pair when her roommate begged her to go in her place when she could not cancel the assignment at the last minute.

Briana had vouched for her and the rest was up to Machiko to re-invent herself. She could finally start over in a foreign country and fit into a strange new place where there were no preconceived notions. A place where she could be accepted for all her eccentricities without fear of having her identity uncovered.

She was finally free. So why did she still feel the emotional incarceration deep in her gut? Would she ever fill the gap of continual yearning, find the missing pieces to the jigsaw puzzle that plagued her daily? She knew this unfulfilled part of her had been from swearing off her love of painting, until now. Then how could she explain the emptiness that lingered inside even though she had broken her vow to never paint again?

Anger surged through her and Machiko got up from her pathetic position on the hardwood floor. She couldn’t believe she had stayed in the house for two whole weeks without giving into temptation until today. Machiko couldn’t escape the madness that overcame her and she had finally given in. She had torn through the art supplies like a starved man at a buffet.

She blamed it on the madness, the transformation that had been planted in her head like a seed that slowly blossomed. Luc Delacroix’s words echoed through her head. Don’t waste your talents. Don’t deprive art lovers by hiding the beauty which you are able to create. You were meant for this. You were born to paint.

The Delacroix had thought they were so clever to propose she housesit for them when she knew damn well they had a deep desire for her to produce pieces for their gallery. Charlotte was a kind woman and very poor at fabricating stories. Over the nine years of service as au pair, Machiko had learned to read the woman and decipher the truths behind her words.

The images of two strikingly beautiful children with disheveled blonde hair and mischievous twinkles in their eyes came to her mind. She smiled at the thought of little Didier and Genevieve who had managed to keep her art teachings a secret from their parents for the past two years. It wasn’t until Luc Delacroix had discovered the stash of artworks hidden in the children’s closet and brought it to her attention that the cat was out of the bag.

Machiko bent down to gather the used paint brushes and walked over to the studio sink. She rinsed out the paints from the brushes before laying them flat across the towel on the counter. She caught a glimpse of her stained hands and arms and it comforted her. The paints felt like a sturdy armor secured around her, protecting her from the harsh, demanding, lonely world.

She did not know how she could deny herself the only pleasures she had ever known for so long. Her stomach squeezed and the searing pain returned. She knew very well why. Machiko had single handedly destroyed her parents’ credibility and reputation with a single lie. Not a day passed without a painful reminder of this fact and the guilt she carried with her all these years became the burdens that sat on her shoulders, in her conscience.

The room seemed constricting and Machiko suddenly needed air. She walked barefoot through the house and stepped out onto the porch that overlooked the ocean. She leaned her stomach against the wooden railing and closed her eyes, inhaling deeply of the cool, salty air. Energy flowed through her body, relaxing her to the core while the soft breeze caressed her face and made her aware of the peacefulness of the early morning.

A yawn escaped her and weariness took over. Had she been awake for almost twenty-four hours now? Painting tended to make her forget time and place. The act was a drug she didn’t want to kick. Her stomach growled and she ignored the sound. She would eat later, but first she would take a hot shower and hope that when she slept the recurring dreams would not take root again.

***

The stranger stroked her face, his hands sliding down her arms, across her ribcage before he gripped her buttocks in his strong hands. She arched her back and felt his lips gently grazing her neck. She turned her head so he could have easier access and he flicked his tongue across her flesh. Her body trembled in anticipation, making her ache to be taken. Violated, worshipped, fulfilled.

He leaned his body in closer, pressing himself between her thighs and the stirrings of desire inched its way through her. She raised her hips, desperate to feel the closeness and he groaned against her throat. The stranger reached up and grabbed a fistful of her hair, pulling her head back before he captured her lips. His kiss was hard, demanding, and greedy as he explored her mouth.

She reached around him and dug her nails into his back. He growled, deepening the kiss, his tongue dueling with hers with the same eagerness and frantic passion. She felt his rock-hard shaft against her stomach, which only increased her cravings. She captured his tongue, sucking gently and the simple act had pleased him. He lifted her ass to position her and in one swift motion he entered her, answering her pleas, filling her up in more ways than one.

He moved slowly at first until she understood the rhythm, until she matched his. His movements increased as he slid in and out of her with long, smooth strokes. His kisses growing intense as they moved together, dancing to a song only their hearts could hear. She urged him on with her hips, her mouth, her hands. Their bodies spoke in a secret language as he pumped into her, hard and fast. Her moans escalated until her senses roared to life and the slow buildup became a tight energy ball that needed to detonate.

Her body heated up, consumed by a fire that stirred within like the vibrant colors of her paints when she mixed them together. They created a complete composition, well balanced, a cohesive structure and color scheme. The faster he moved the wetter she became until the pressure was too much for her. She could feel the tension coiling tighter, his body taking control, leaving her helpless and without strength to fight the inevitable.

Do you really want to fight it?

A strange repetitive shrill broke through her senses and Machiko jolted awake. Her heart hammering in her chest, her body tense, her sex screaming out its disappointment.

She let out a hollow sigh and reached for the phone on her nightstand.

Disappointment was an emotion she knew all too well.

***

“Fuck. Fuck. Double fuck!” Machiko yelled as she ran through the house toward the kitchen. Smoke billowed from the oven and she yanked open the metal door. The quick drop made it bounce on its hinges. The sounds of the fire detector going off was deafening to the ears. She took one look at the metal cookie sheet and the charred remains of her once perfect balls of dough laughed back at her.

Machiko grabbed a baking mitt and shoved her hand through it before pulling out the tray, kicking the door shut with her foot. She dropped the cookie sheet on the stove, threw off the mitt, and started opening all the glass doors and windows she could get to before she dealt with the alarm.

A loud banging on her front door added to her annoyance and she ignored the sound. When the pounding didn’t stop and the shrill of the alarm grated heavily on her nerves she ran to the door and opened it without looking through the peephole. “What?”

“Well, hello…” the man began, his brows drew together and without finishing his greeting he stepped around her and went straight for the source of the irritating noise. The stranger reached up and pulled the lid off the smoke detector before pulling out the battery to silence the device.

“Fuckin’ annoying things,” he muttered to no one in particular before turning to meet her gaze. She had managed to follow him and realized it had been an error in judgment.

Machiko stood inches from him and when she had fully focused in on his face her chest tightened oddly, her body temperature rising. My God, he was perfect. Her heart stopped.

The man had remarkable features. Piercing toffee eyes with a gentleness to them, high cheekbones, a strong, square jaw. To top it off, his thick mass of spiky dark hair only accentuated his sexy, rugged good looks. He reminded her of a sleek athlete mixed with a catalog model appeal like a David Beckham or a Tom Brady. Not so bulky, just lean and masculine.

“Welcome to the neighborhood,” he announced in a rich voice that made her knees suddenly grow wobbly. The man shoved a covered dish at her and all she could do was stare. She didn’t know how long she had paused; her eyes were glued to those lips, that wide grin which slowly dissolved into a frown.

“This is the part where you take the gift and thank me,” he instructed in a tone that made her feel like a child that couldn't grasp simple instructions.

“Um, thanks.” She felt like an idiot and grabbed the dish from him. “What is it? And who are you?”

“Cookies. From the smell of things, it looks like you aren’t a seasoned baker. Better leave it to the pros.”

Machiko didn’t know what to make of the man. He had a take-charge demeanor. Had managed to dismantle her alarm like a hero rescuing a damsel in distress, yet when he opened his mouth he had practically insulted her twice in two sentences.

“Excuse me?” She emphasized with attitude.

“No offense, but I’m afraid the burnt cookie smell may take a while to air out.” He winked as if he were trying to turn up the charm.

Somehow his action made her defensive and she couldn’t wait to get rid of him fast enough.

“Thanks for the gift but now I’ve got a lot of cleanup work to do.” She turned abruptly and headed for the front door, which was still wide open from moments ago. She didn’t hear the footsteps behind her and whirled around to see if he was going to follow.

His expression, the strength of his stance, the intense glint in his eyes made her think of a Gladiator preparing for battle. Look away. Why did he make her feel so unhinged? Nervous, anxious, uncomfortable, yet so aroused.

Her body hummed. There was definitely a strange pull of attraction so strong she needed to look away before she made a fool of herself. She would most likely gawk at him as if she’d never seen a man before. Her skills in the social conversation department had always been lacking and someone who looked like him never glanced her way, let alone wanted to engage in conversation with her.

“Are you always this friendly?”

He started to move toward her and she took a step back. The man frowned at her response, then his expression changed. He appeared to relax, showing her a flash of white teeth as he smiled at her. “Hey, I can see I caught you at a bad time. I’m one of your neighbors, two houses down. Come by anytime if you need anything.” He headed for the door and stopped right at the frame. “I work from home so don’t hesitate to drop by. I’m sure you’d need a cup of sugar or a bottle of wine sometime when you aren’t in the mood to run to the nearest store. I’ve got plenty in stock.”

His words came out in one long stream and she couldn’t help biting back a smile. His actions were almost boyish and he seemed like a man who craved company. She, however, was the complete opposite and relished the solitude. Loved shutting herself off from society if she had a choice.

“Thanks. I’m sure I won’t be needing anything.” She attempted a smile, a little out of practice, and hoped she had at least sounded friendlier. Just go already. If he stuck around any longer she was ready to shove him out the door.

As if a light bulb clicked in her head, an old memory resurfaced. She recalled the first time her body reacted this way and her stomach knotted at the thought.

Lust.

He nodded in understanding but his eyes seemed to be sending her a message she couldn’t read. Those beautiful chocolate eyes she could drown in if she wasn’t careful.

“If you change your mind…” he let the sentence hang and turned to leave without waiting for her response.

She watched him continue down the steps and along the sandy path. When he disappeared in the distance, she finally let out her breath.

The knot tightened.

All signs pointed to trouble. He was a six-foot, hunky temptation just two doors down and the kind that oozed a whole mess of trouble she shouldn’t entertain the thought of getting to know.

***

Here are links of the participants by Heat Level Ratings, per your preference:

Bria Quinlan, Rom Com (PG)
Melissa Aires, Paranormal Erotic Romance (PG)
Gina Ardito, Historical Paranormal (PG)
Kinsey W. Holley, Paranormal (PG)
Cynthia Justlin, Romantic Suspense (PG)
Jeannie Lin, Historical (PG)
RF Long, Fantasy (PG)

Mel Berthier, Urban Fantasy (PG-13)
Lynne Chandler, Romantic Suspense (PG 13)
Babette James, Fantasy Romance (PG-13)
Ansha Kotyk, Middle Grade Adventure (PG 13)
Adelle Laudan, Romantic Suspense (PG 13)
Crista McHugh, Historical Paranormal Romance (PG-13)
Alina Morgan, Urban Fantasy (PG 13)

Leah Braemel, Contemporary Erotic Romance (R)
Evie Byrne, Paranormal (R)
Jax Cassidy, Erotic Contemporary (R)
Cate Hart, YA (R)
Inez Kelley, Rom Com (R)
Ainslinn Kerry, Paramornal Romance (R)
Elise Logan, Paranormal/contemporary (R)
Suzanne McLeod, Urban Fantasy (R)
Annie Nicholas, Paranormal Romantic Suspense (R)
Vivienne Westlake, Historical Erotica (R)

Ella Drake, Erotic Paranormal Romance (NC-17)
Kirsten Saell, Erotic Romance/Fantasy (NC-17)
Kate Willoughby, Fantasy/Parnormal Erotic Romance (NC-17)

Something to Remember

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , , ,
It's easy to forget sometimes that we've all had overcome adversity once or twice in our lives. I'm not going to lie, the economic downturn has really been a negative in my personal life, but not once have I stopped to feel sorry for myself. Not once have I wept when the situation makes you feel a little helpless no matter how hard you've worked without seeing any results. Sure, I get angry but I don't lose sight of all those times I had to start over--to keep going and keep believing that something good is just around the corner. I'm not the only one feeling the effects of the rocky times. My friends are feeling the same pressures and strains and I find myself consoling them. It's a funny cycle and on the outside, I'm strong...inside, I'm in turmoil.

I knew publishing would be a long, drawn-out journey, and although I've had it easier than most, it still seems like I'm still the new kid. Maybe I'll always be the new kid but it doesn't frighten me. It makes me work harder and it makes me stop to see the big picture. I've never known myself not to write and spin stories. It's in my blood and even when I think I should stop and find a new career better suited for me, I know the truth is that writing is my career. All other jobs I hold are only necessities to get to where I want to be. This has been a bumpy and sad journey because you find out a lot about yourself during tough times. For me, I've found peace within myself and I've found the spirituality I've left behind some time ago. This journey has been a sad one because this is the time you find out who your real friends are. The ones who will turn their backs on you when you're down and out, when you need them most of all to hold your hand. Unfortunately, these so-called friends are the same ones that didn't hesitate to complain and cry while you lent them a shoulder to cry on, now they only see you as dead weight and don't have any problems in watching you sink. After all, they don't want to hear your troubles. Sounds like a harsh thing to say--but I found out who my true friends are, the kindred souls, and ones I wouldn't hesitate to reach out to them at any time throughout my life to be their anchor.

No, this isn't bitterness speaking. This is a reflection, an understanding of who I have become and why I must continue to write. It's easy to quit but it's harder to stay and fight. I'm a fighter. In the meantime, I've got some stories to finish and some more promos to do. Being small press published requires you to do majority of your own promotions. My print run is smaller but I'm going to make sure my sales will reflect my hard work....Mostly, I would be thrilled to know that I actually have readers who like my writing...who likes me. That's always a good thing and keeps a smile on my face.

Think positive. Stay focused. Believe when you think the dark clouds will never pass.

Booksigning Saturday, May 9th

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
Hey Folks!

Just coming out of the dark to let you all know about this multi-author booksigning on Saturday.

Stop by at 12:00PM for the special High Tea in the Cafe. DOWNLOAD the flyer about the event! Proceeds of the signing goes to the Bedford Public Library, so please support these awesome folks!



Event Details:

Afternoon of Romance
Saturday, May 9th


12:00 pm - High Tea in Café
1:00 pm - Author Discussion and Signing

Authors: Candace Havens, Karen Kelley, Cindy Dees, Jax Cassidy,
Amie Stuart, Karen Whiddon, Juliet Burns and Celya Bowers

Barnes & Noble
861 North East Mall Blvd


• Panel of Best Selling Romance Authors
• Door Prizes

*Percentage of all purchases contributed to Bedford Public Library

Please pass this on. Your generosity helps the youth of tomorrow..our future readers! :) THANKS!


PS. I'll be giving away an awesome prize at the event--an Artist's Bag--those who stop in to see me will have a chance to get your name in the drawing. While you're at it, pick up my book ART OF SENSUALITY. This is the first time ever that I'm signing this book... :P

To the Writing Cave...

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
Life.

Well, I've got soooooo much going on these days and I need to take some time to catch up on all my deadlines and personal obligations. I'm giving myself a few weeks, so in the interest of not going crazy and running down the street hurling profanities at the top of my lungs...I will retreat to the writing cave.

I'll be doing my blogging rounds and trouble shooting issues with Romance Divas, but I shall be scarce. Hopefully I'll be able to pop in and throw out some nuggets of wisdom. In the interim I hope you all buckle down and focus on your projects, loved ones, and staying optimistic.

Reminders:

Every Monday I'm at HOOKED ON ROMANCE and some Thursdays.

The 1st of every month I'm at the Parker Publishing blog.

While I'm hiding out, I am trying to stay offline as much as humanly possible. Let's see how well that works out....eh. If you are desperate for me to resurface, feel free to email me or scream your protests in your comments. Okay, I'm off to total recluse mode.....

Out.

Kicking Back...

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
Man, I need a pedicure...well, I'll be doing that before the book signing next Saturday. I've gotten a haircut so I don't look so scraggly and now I need to put together a gift basket.

<---- Yep, that's me in my sweat pants!

It's been a crazy week but I've been kicking back today when I should be writing. Believe me, it'll get done. Ahem...Can you see how much I've let my office go? It's an utter mess and the Feng Shui experts will be cursing at me for not taking better care of my Chi. Oh well, I'll have to clean up today...maybe.

I've been popping back and forth into Romance Divas' Forum and I can't help cracking up. I spurred an interesting avatar theme a few days ago and it brought many of our members back to our youth. From big hair to fashion faux pas--it's wonderful to see how much we've all changed and grew into the person we are now. Granted, I didn't grow as much in height, but I made up in personality. :P I can't stop giggling because there are some seriously funny and sweet pics.

Well, over at HOOKED ON ROMANCE on Monday, author Cathy Yardley is guest blogging. Then on Thursday we'll have Elaine Spencer of the Knight Agency talking about Conferences. You shouldn't miss her advice on how to act and not to act around agents! It's going to be awesome. Great prizes to be given away to those who participate...now, I'll be on a brief hiatus to finish my current Irish story! Wish me luck........

PS. I'm over at PARKER PUBLISHING'S Blog with an Exercise to Inspire you slacker writers! Go check it out! There's a contest involved, too!

Happy Birthday Abigail!

Author: Jax Cassidy // Category: , ,
Don't ask me to sing, you won't get it out of me...but I did want to wish my dearest buddy Abigail McKenley a Happy Happy Birthday! Hope you have a wonderful day celebrating and enjoying the company, food, wine, and desserts! Wish I were there to celebrate with you!!!! **Big Hug & Kiss**

Onto other news, the Irish story is lovely. I am SO mad for the hero! I won't lie...I've been soul searching, but you all know that. I was feeling down about my writing and now that I've forced myself back into the zone...I realized that 'I still got it!' Hard to believe how much pressure an author can put on themselves when they've heard disappointing news or things aren't going according to plan...but, hey, we're all human and we go through those phases even if we are positive individuals. I don't think it's a sign of weakness...contrary, I think it's a sign of resilience and bravery to keep pushing forward. I just think of all my friends who have been in my spot time after time and where they are now..it proves that being strong will get me there.

Happy Friday folks! Hope everyone has an amazing weekend. I know that I'll be even more cheerful after I see WOLVERINE...Hugh Jackman has a way with putting a smile on my face....

Now, if I could just get off twitter and facebook today, I would be much more productive....these online addictions are getting ridiculous...I shall have to make a stand...

Now, go write already!